the 23rd birthday

i m 23 years old now,
time flies, yet i m still like a little girl.
but the reality does not allow me to behave like a girl,
thousand of burden lay on me, and i have to force myself to bear with it.

i m not the always lucky one, but i m still lucky person,
at least i m healthy and i am able to do thing on my own but not relying on others,
although life always tough for me, but i m glad, coz i have my frens and my family,
they all gave me mentally, physically and financially support.

this year, i had done several decisions,
on car , house.
i bought my very 1st car by my own, the car is not expensive, in fact its a local production, and i commited 9 years on it with only RM5k down-payment (which is my hard-earned money,RM1.2k was borrowed from frens). without buying it, i couldn't even go for work.
and here i had my very 1st house, which is forced by my mom to buy it,
the location is not the good one, a bit outskirt and isolated but hope it will be well developed soon, and i believes it gonna takes a very long time..and now i have car loans and property loan, heavy burden all imposed on me,
i m suffocating, yet my little salary seriously cannot afford to pay all the installment.
so i need a makeover on my career, and i m still figuring which field i should go for. 
i hope my decision wasn't wrong and wont be wrong.

back to the topic, i should have talk more about my birthday,
this year is fine, frens took me for brithday dinner, lunchie, and a small surprise.
i m glad to have all of you in my life story. thanks for everything, i truly appreciates.
and my birthday wishes are :-
to be rich , to be successful, to be happy , to be healthy, to have you all in my life and to be blessed.

thanks you guys for spending time on me..
all the best in our future and keep the frenship till the end of the world (Probably 21/12/2012 ?)

我虽不是完美，
但相信是独特的
你若不珍惜，
我不会留恋，
但愿你马上离开我，
别来破坏我原来完美的生活!

MIEA REAL ESTATE DINNER - 06.10.2012

I'm currently working in a real estate agency,
i m not agent, i m a supportive staff in the company.
My boss is a very kind person, very easy going and considerable, always buy us foods.
my colleagues are all friendly person to me,
but when something relates to $$, they are very sensitive about it.

Boss invited us to go for MIEA dinner last saturday,
at first i was thinking not to go, because its a real estate agency awards dinner,
should be nothing to do with a supportive staff like me,
but boss insists and keep telling me not to FFK him,
because he only able to get one table, not every agents have to chance to go,
he only ask some senior agents to attend it,
and he wants me to know more ppl and explore more.
so i attended the dinner.

people who know me well, they will know my time management is very 'good'.
i used the time management on that day,
when i reached the dinner place, my boss and all colleagues were sitting there,
and the dinner is started about half an hour ago
of coz i still managed to be the last..maintain my records. - nvr be punctual.

thanks god that i attended this dinner,
my boss and colleagues were crazy, we all keep teasing each other,
it was really fun..we all like not stop laughing in the dinner,
it was more to our company dinner, we nvr want to bother the rest, until we got complaint from others.
boss brought 2 bottles of hennessy, we managed to finished it.
one of the agent in my company , named Kathy, she is a very funny lady,
forgetful and talkactive, yet we all actually dunno wht she is trying to tell.
everyone like to tease her, but she is enjoying it..we enjoy too^^
all the ladies and gentlements dressed up nicely,
the dresscode was Formal and a touch of gold..
so i wore a white dress and able to find an good accesssories.

at last but not least
Congrats to our Reapfield Properties founder - David Ong
able to retained the following awards:
Specialized Category
Real Estate Agency Of The Year: David Ong (Reapfield Properties Sdn Bhd)
Real Estate Agency Of The Year (Large Agency Category): Reapfield Properties Sdn Bhd

 myself..camwhore in the toilet..

the most handsome and pretty agents in my office
   during end of the dinner, photo time!

 The middle men is my boss.,,HE is cute rite?? he is the one who suggest to pose like this=.=''

a small group picture of RPSMK, most of them are senior agent, some is still new but is very productive..

 
 

【一個人不可能】

一个人我在沮丧
一个人走在路上
泪流下那么荒唐
分手当初是我在逞强

一个人对谁嚣张
一个人为谁而忙
我懂了你没反抗
是因为我不够坚强

只是我一个人 一个人不可能
不可能有多快乐 我承认
从前是两个人 两个人多认真
一年后却像两个陌生人

只是我一个人 一个人不可能
不可能有多快乐 我承认
想回到两个人 认真的两个人

一个人没有方向
一个人闷得发慌
谁懂的我的疯狂
谁会一直在我的身旁

一个人该怎么样
一个人一个人唱
天冷了你还好吗
明天是不是会晴朗

只是我一个人 一个人不可能
不可能有多快乐 我承认
从前是两个人 两个人多认真
一年后却像两个陌生人

只是我一个人 一个人不可能
不可能有多快乐 我承认
想回到两个人 认真的两个人

一个人 一个人不可能
不可能有多快乐 多温热
再习惯一个人 一个人再认真
认真也不能让幸福成真

一个人 一个人不可能
不可能有两个人的灵魂
等待另一个人 爱的另一个人

（一个人的女生会如此坚强，有时侯只是太害怕受伤害，
再次遍体鳞伤，我真的怕了。。 ）

累

觉得自己活的好累好累
一直以来我对我自己的有一定的要求
学业，事业，前途，未来
可是都好像力不从心，想要的偏得不到，
或许是我不够努力
很累，
父母的期望，我的好胜，我有压力，
觉得自己好像很失败，
毕业也都一年了，也没有什么成就。。

我好担心未来，
总觉得现在好像连自己想要得东西都没办法买了，
日子很难过，到底为什么。

家人朋友都觉得我可以更好，可以更好，
我真的可以吗？我有本事吗？
我怀疑自己的能力
当然，我也希望自己能活得更好

感情，不想提及，也不堪一提
总是觉得是错的，
大家也觉得是错的，
就连自己也觉得是错的，挣扎，伤心，流泪，
但我也坚持，是想要证明些什么吗？
说实在的，感情，我已失去信心。。。
 
我好想一切从头开始，
好像放弃自己现在拥有的一切，

真的好像，转身离开。。。。。。。。。

绝望=新希望

曾几何时， 我的部落格开始只记录了不开心的事，
 怎么开心的事越来越少了，
 情绪好不稳定

曾经以为，
 只要是真心付出， 真心对待，
得到的也会是真心的
 相反，
你越是真心得到的越是伤心，
 一次一次的原谅，一次又一次的找借口安抚自己，一次一次的眼泪，
 为了你，早已忘了什么是底线，
 但还是换来一次又一次的背叛
该得到这种结果吗？
好不公平，好不甘心

傻女孩， 该醒了，
告诉自己眼泪应该流的值得，
 为值得的人和事而流，
要知道爱你的人，不忍心让你流泪，
 让你流泪的人，根本不值得你爱，
 别傻了，
别再为了这贱人流泪，
爱情不等于全部，
别为了他而活，要为自己而活，
泪流干了就要面对。
该感谢，因为他，而让你一次比一次坚强！

 绝望就是新希望得到来！

Trip to Hong Kong

travelling, is the thing i like the most...

we bought flight ticket since end of last year,

apparently , its a very long waiting trip,

and now, we are going to fly to Hong kong on next thursday,

ＴＩＭＥ　ＦＬＩＥＳ，　Ｄｏｎｔ　ｙｏｕ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ｓｏ？！

feeling great because i can take few day leaves and no need to be at office..

Hong Kong, I m coming! <3

 

值得吗？

明知道有些路已经错了
明知道有些人有些事已经不值得了
但心里却老是放不下
一路以来的坚持到底是为了什么 ，
伤心泪流又到底为了什么

曾经的期望，变成了失望，
而如今的失望， 转变为绝望

恨自己为何会如此的沮丧，
为何弄的自己那么悲伤，

事与愿违 ，

认了！不值得了！

I'm stronger than before

i used to be so down and emo recently, i myself know the reason why, something that is just out of my control. thanks god, i have become stronger than before, things that used to took my tears, its no longer earns my tears anymore. i had become stronger than i was.

From now on, i need to have a makeover, from inner..
something and maybe someone had totally changed me. i m not supposed to live for others, i live for my own..thanks friends that always stand by me and be supportive. How lucky i have u guys...<3

i swear to god, i will be strong, no matter what, i will stay strong and smile, no matter good or bad...
i wan myself to be happy :)

写给女人的话

张爱玲写给女人的话

1. 就算眼前的这个男人，千般好，万般好，处处都是优点；但他不爱你，这个缺点，是你永远改变不了的！
2. 分手时，不哭。当然，不是要你一点都不哭！当着面，别哭；背地里，往死里哭。
3. 一个人最大的缺点不是野蛮、任性、自私，而是偏着的爱着一个不爱自己的人。
4. 不管你的条件有多差，也总会有个人爱你；不管你的条件有多好，也总会有人不爱你。
5. 抓住男人的不仁法门，应该就是，永远不要让他满足。
6. 打扮得再美，穿的再昂贵，那只是个幌子，用善良做的外衣才是真的美。
7. 如果我们责怪爱情伤害了我们，那请问，开始的时候是不是你点头答应爱情的来临。
8. 能开口说出的委屈，便不是委屈，能离开的人，便不算是爱人。
9. 所有爱着的人，爱过的人，都做同一件事，犯贱。
10. 心里能装着一些时间带不走的淡淡的悲伤，也是一种幸福。