Wednesday, November 23, 2011

loneliness

have you ever walk alone in a rainy day?
have you ever drive alone in a midnight but you have no place to go?
have you ever feel the loneliness but you are actually quite enjoy it?

i did it all today,
today is a rainy day, and i wanted to go for a walk so much,
the whole park was dangerously quiet, and i m the only one people who walking around the park.
i feel the peacefulness, i feel the silence, and i feel the loneliness..
i ain't afraid of loneliness, not at all, instead i m enjoying it..
silence..it helps to refresh my mind...

i went for a joyride alone, i shouldnt call it a ‘joyride', it should be called a 'lonelyride'
i drove the same road over and over again, i have no direction no destination.
while driving alone,
i listening to songs, i sang out loudly,
and then i off the radio, i heard nothing, i was thinking nothing, i feel nothing,
mind blank, heart blank...
i gave my mind and my heart for a rest....

loneliness, everyone does,
every days and nights are so noisy, so packed , so rush, so stress
when loneliness and silence comes, i feel great....
sometimes i feel like to disconnect with the world..
just wan to be alone for awhile.....cease all the thoughts...

i did it tonight...and the last time was few years ago....
although lonely, but i felt great

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Proud to be a M'sian ( Today only )


Malaysia has won the football match today,
defeated Indonesia, everyone was so exciting over the match..
Well..watching football match is not my hobby,
i m ddumb, not really know how to enjoy watching it without placing bet on it...
hahaha..
last time i had once placing bet on FIFA world cup, and i won a cup of Starbuck Coffee from my fren Chlovy Tan, that was my 1st time putting all my attention on the match from the begining to the end...

lets come back to the topic, Malaysia finally won, my friend told me that our national football team is actually doing quite well, of coz not to compare with those famous Europe country..
i didnt watch the match, hmm..but my dad did, before i went out, he told me that the match is started, if Msia won, we might have a holiday..

WOW! i am a little bit mean, what i focus is just the HOliday, hahha.. hoping that the holiday will be declare soon, so i can less one working day...
i think everyone hoping the same thing rite?
everyone is lazy...
KULI are hoping for the holiday, BOSS are worry for the holiday..
i'm KULI! ^^
We WON, Malaysia WON, we WON, Malaysian WAN a holiday! YESSSS!

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Fuck My Life


why am i so fucking pissed off, while the person dont even care about it?
i have been asking myself this for the whole night,
over and over again,
the result generated, simple: coz i m stupid.
why are you have such a big influence to me?
hmmp, i know the reason why...

i used to be alone, i used to be independent,
i used to live my life happily,
i taught people not to take everything seriously,
coz it will eventually suffering yourself..
and i experiencing it..right now...

and from now on, i decided not to let everyone ruin my life again,
again and again, stop torturing me , can you?!
this is my life,
i dont fucking care what people did,
i dont fucking care!
please, i am telling myself, not to care everything!

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Cycling day @ putrajaya

this cycling activity was planned for quite a long time,


well, we are actually placed every sunday morning as our exercise day,
lets see how long we can do it,
i bet this is the first and also the last....
coz i knew myself and my friends too much>.<..

有些话,
听了很久,
已经不想再听了。。。

有些事情,
期待了很久,
已经开始绝望了。。。

有些承诺,
背叛了无数次,
已经没勇气再去相信了。。。

爱情不能做比较,
才发现,
原来不比较,

真的很难。。。。。。。

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

心思


何谓心思
对我而言,它,很重要,
一个人愿意花心思在你身上,比愿意花钱在你身上来的重要,来的可贵。
一个人不愿意花心思,时间在你身上,那你也不需为他浪费时间了,是多余的。

一个人肯认真为你而改,肯倾听你的心事,爱你所爱的,
如果他不曾为你改进,不曾了解你,不曾接受你,一味的要做他的大男人,
那,
女人,
真地要保持清醒啊~