心痛..

曾经的我，是多么的相信你，
但是事实永远是残酷的，
是你让我学会相信，也是你让我知道什么是虚伪，
你的诚实，很虚伪，
你的假惺惺，你给的假希望，让我很失望，
一次一次找理由安慰自己，
只觉得自己很傻，为了你，我几乎放弃所有，
你的背叛，我很心痛，
曾经，你为了这件事责骂我，我感到内疚，
今天才发现，原来你也是一样，你根本没有资格说我，
我感谢上天，给我机会，让我看穿你，
我心痛，我失望，
但是我也很记仇，
你不仁我不义，
你既然做的出，就要敢当，
我很伤心，很失望，
今天我流的泪，你会十赔奉还！
相信我，
我会让你死得不明不白！

IT

its hard and difficult, one down and another one up, how long i gonna get rid of all these, how long still i can reach the destination..i wondering...
i always thought it does not matter, but its actually mattered,
in life, in everywhere...
i need more power and i need support..to fight for it.
but please dont blame me if i give up one day, i dint meant it, i thought i m strong and tough enough to face all these, but actually i m not..i m weak..so weak...

Munakata Japanese Buffet + Caffeinees

we planned to go Munakata japanese buffet for so long,
yeah,we always planned. but never take action,
luckily we have Elles to be a good organizer, we executed the plan eventually...

thought we can have at least 9 persons going for the buffet dinner, but Scott and his pretty princess couldnt make it..so throw us airplane in the end..and left with 7 of us..

yeah..we are here!

Elles booked the whole restaurant for us, no others, just us! *credit to our organizer -Elles*


my 1st favourite : shashimi salmon...

soft shell crab tempura..


my 2nd favourite Unagi..yumyum..
we had a super long chit-chat session, it was about 5 hours of dining+chitchating, until the worker forced us to leave..Girls talked about job n guys talked about Dota =.='' Dota again!


someone stupid asked us to acted like we saw an UFO, erm..? wht do u think?


after dinner, we took about half an hour standing outside the restaurant and think about a nice place for yumcha..
Elson came out with his idea : Caffeinees..!

here's the place...a well-decorated, wholly white, romantic place..once got out from the car, smell cames 1st, Shisha...aiks..i dun like it...so we decided to sit indoor to avoid for that smell cames out from shisha..and we had another chitchat session, it took about 3 hours, again, girls talked about job, and guys continued with their never-end topics -Dota!=.=''


our outing ended with a electrical dance which performed by George, held right at the entrance of Caffeinees..





looking forward for our next outing, maybe by that time, we all are already employed, and guys becoming the expert of Dota and are the representatives of Malaysia * as they always wished*

new life begins...

after so many years,
i couldn't escape of this anymore,
work, is a must for everyone of us,
we cant get rid of this,
this gonna be a part of our life...


i m kind of blur, i dunno which and what to choose,
right or wrong, and everything ..
though there is nothing to be afraid,
learn from mistakes, we all do
dun be afraid of making any mistakes..
i told myself this every time...

I've been hunting for jobs for weeks,
job hunting is a job too, and it is not an easy one,
i went few interviews,
at first i felt it interesting,
but now, its too bored for me to attend an interview session..
been repeating the same thing over and over again..


to learn , to explore, to enjoy
this is what life want us to be...

what's in me?

i was in a bad situation,
both mentally and physically,
as i said, i m not myself anymore,
i meant it,
i cant speak up what i want, what i needed,
i m trying to hide all my feelings inside,
i admit that i m kind of greedy and selfish person,
but then i m also kind of softhearted person,
when i said yes, its actually means no,
why are NO so hard to say?
just because i care, i cares about people's feeling,
i dont want anyone get hurts,
i have thousand things in my mind,
but things came out in opposite way from my mouth,
and this almost break me into two person,
i cant be myself, it isn't me, and i dont know which one is me?
i m very confused, i need someone to consult me,
i hope to stop all this shit, but then i cant..
i wan to be frank, but i choose to tell lies, because i dun wan people get hurts,
i lie myself, i lies to you, and everyone
i need a break, i m seriously tired with all of these....

do you know that?
i wanted for so much..
its more than you can imagine...

healthy"s light turned red!

having an serious infection that caused me did not sleep well for few days.. it was fucking painful, almost cried every night..
I m damn worried about my health actually, I din tell anyone of my family, that how am I suffering for this , I dont wanna let them worry about me!

few day ago I went to clinic, doctor told me it's an infection and asked me to drink plenty of water. and I did it everyday , I drank almost 10 liters of water each day, but it doesn't turn well..and I started worried！I think I better go for body check up before it is too late... god bless me..

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人生

人生象搭一段长途巴士，
有人上车有人下车，有人陪着你直到终点，
不是我在途中把你踢了出来，而是我选择了在途中下车，
从你的人生走出，
下了车后，会更好，还是想象中的差，我不知道。。。

谢谢你，
那是人生中的一段经历，
一段学习，
一段美好的回忆，
我不会忘记，
若要忘记，也谈何容易
真心祝福你

未来的路我不会走，也不清楚，
只能不断地走下去。。。