Waiting for Result

opps! college announced that our result is going to release within this week
i m feeling extraordinary anxious and worried,
because last semester i was busy playing,
didnt really pay much effort on my studies,
hope the result wont be so bad
i didnt ask for much, let me pass all the paper will do!
wish me luck guys! god bless us!

2011

已经有好久好久没上部落格了，

不知不觉，已经踏入2011年，明年就是2012了，不知世界末日是否真的会来临呢？！

转眼间，以前还是天真无知的我们，也踏入了成人的世界，背负的责任是一年比一年的重，

压力也一年比一年来得多，笑容似乎也越来越少了。

新年去了朋友家拜年，朋友的妈妈说，明年要看到我们各个要带着男朋友来，似乎她开始担心女儿找不到男朋友，嫁不出去，说实在的，并不是没有，而是不要，因为看的人越多，条件就会越高。

其实，朋友的妈担心也是没有错，因为女人青春是短暂的，美丽也不是永恒的，俗语也只有‘钻石王老五’ ， 男人越老越值钱，女人越老越赔钱！

我向来都是个很好胜的人，从不觉得女人会输给男人，而我也觉得男人并不可靠，毕竟靠山山倒，靠水水流，倒不如靠自己，最好！但是历年来，我的生活费，还是靠着家里的男人支撑，很矛盾吧！

现代的女性，多半都是单身的，男人，再也不是唯一能让女生依靠的东西了。其实，再强的人，她应该也会希望有人可以让她依靠吧

妈妈常说我的个性很不好，要改这改那，其实我没完全听进耳，因为我就是我，重来没有想过要改变什么，说我任性，不懂事，固执也好，因为我认为这就是我。

我人缘也不太好，妈说我老是一副臭脸，看到的人都害怕了，哪还敢上前一步说话呢？！ 我不主动，也不好谈，脾气坏，不爱接受批评，不听他人劝告，没责任感，不爱热闹，不爱分享，不诚实...爱放飞机～

其实今年二十二岁的我，是该好好反省了，因为长大了，没有人会宠着你，让你任性了。

也该开始要好好为未来的日子做些打算，总不能永远带着‘过一天算一天’的心态过日子吧。

在这新的一年里，我希望我能努力的改变自己，也别再浪费时间，好好规划自己想拥有的人生！

All albout face!

See what i had bought recently~~

please do not be shocked when you see this...i didnt bought so much of KOSE products..

all these were brought by 3 silly girls, which are KOSE supporters and dont wanna admit themselves as shopaholics.

well, mine is just only a partial of it..

i got myself 1 Emulsion, 1 Moisturizer, 1 Face Powder, 3 mascara, 1 Liquid Eyeliner, 1 lip gloss..

kinda embarassed when compared to the another 2 silly girls, they spent so much on that day..

lets me introduce them in more detail

the 1st one

SEKKISEI EMULSION EXCELLENT

this is the classic and most popular series between KOSE products, and i love this!

the 2nd one

WHITE SUCCEED MOISTURIZER R

one of the silly girl strongly recommended this to me, not to say strongly recommend, more to forcing me to buy this~ haha ~ anyway, as i m still using my previous moisturizer, and i havent try this out yet, will have the chance later~

the 3rd one

FACE POWDER - star twinkle

it does makes my skin looks radiantly, and brighthened it, cheers me up all day long~

the 4th one

liquid eyeliner

i bought a bronze colour, was trying all the colours and finally choosen this, this colour is special to me..hope it will makes me to look great!

the 5th one

ROUGE FANTASIST AQUA VINYL

it is highly moisturizing lip gloss, i bought a natural colour which i think this is the niciest colour amongst all..looks naturally sexy

the 6th one

mascara classure- long lash mascara (deep claret)

its a brown colour mascara, contains fiber, and helps in extending ur eyelash..love it!

the 7th one

Mascara Fantasist Volume-show waterproof (Vital Violet)

this was my very first time of buying a violet colour mascara=.= i tried it once, looks fabulous, i love the colour, and it is super long lasting~

the last one is the same type as above but in black colour~

i had spent quite a lot on that day, but i m happy, coz quite some time never do shopping d! XD

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诱惑和寂寞

刚刚看了这边文章，顿时有了感触
内容是这样的

一个女人带着孩子出门去了
留下了男人一个人在家

女人不在家
男人喝着啤酒
不停地换着电视频道

这时..
女孩的电话打来了
她说
：我闲着没事..到你家坐坐吧?
男人说
：这——不行、我正要出去

女孩其实已经在男人的楼下了
女孩是男人的部下
女孩很多次对他表示出了好感
男人都巧妙地拒绝了
男人知道年轻女孩的心是一张空白的纸
他没有资格在上面留下任何墨迹

女孩手里提着很多东西
还有一瓶红酒
站在了男人的家门口
男人说
：那我下厨吧...
女孩说
：不用！
便在厨房里忙碌起来

男人忙不迭地收拾房子
他偶然看见女孩忙碌的背影
突然有了一种感动
就那么一会儿
他立即将这种片刻的感觉压在了心底

在另一间房子里
他开始打电话约熟悉的朋友来家里吃饭
可是朋友们都不在
过一会女孩已经在喊他了
他到厨房猛地愣了
女孩端给他的是一盘热腾腾的饺子
他最爱吃饺子了
可是平时他和女人都太忙
没有时间包饺子

两盘饺子、几碟小菜、一瓶红酒
女孩的脸上柔柔的笑
搅动了他的心
说不清为什么?
他在女孩不注意的时候关掉了手机
拉上了阳台的帘
他能听到自己心跳的声音

一瓶红酒喝完了
女孩说头晕
就软绵绵地倒在了男人怀里
男人承认女孩是美丽的
他紧紧地把她抱在怀里
也就在那一刻
他才感觉到女孩的身体是那样的弱小
在他宽阔的肩膀里像个孩子似的睡着
像他的女儿
他的心猛地一颤

女孩在他的床上睡去了
他轻轻地带上了门
这时客厅的电话响了
是女人和孩子打来的
男人仍然喝着啤酒
不停地换着频道
他分明听到了女孩轻微的呼吸
但是他努力地让自己的心冷静、再冷静

女孩醒来的时候已经是第二天早上
男人一夜未眠
男人为女孩准备了早餐
吃饭的时候
女孩问
：你不喜欢我吗?
男人说
：喜欢
：那你不寂寞吗?
：有点...可是.....
：怕我纠缠你?
女孩的嘴像迸豆似的发问
男人认真地说：生活是一种责任
就像这碗稀饭和煎蛋
尽管老吃觉得没有什么味道
可是你每天还得做、还得吃
有时甚至觉得它难吃
可是不吃心里空荡荡的
女孩沉默了

送走了女孩
男人觉得从未有过的轻松

爱是一种诚信
是需要付出代价的
如果不爱或无法承受
那么就别轻易地将自己的心打开
诱惑和寂寞
本不是爱的理由


试问，又有几个男人可以做到这点？
女人诺是送上门的，那个男人会不吃？
或许有些人会说他不会，那可能是他没遇到，
当他遇到了，心里会想着：吃了再打算~
因为他们败给了诱惑。。

在现实生活里，这是很平常的，
男人出馗也不足为奇，
反而能抵抗诱惑的，才叫稀有。。
当然，性并不是一种罪，而责任才是。。
送上门的女人，他们渴望的是短暂的拥抱，寂寞的良药。。
但诺是被拆穿了，她们可是良好婚姻的绊脚石。。
男人 女人也一样，必须对自己所做的事情负责任，承受后果而不是抱怨。

虽然说诱惑和寂寞本不是爱的理由，
可是它们却是灾难的源头

对我而言，男人出馗是很难避免的，但是吃饱了要懂得擦嘴，别留下手尾。。
为了寻求短暂的刺激，而失去你所拥有的，哪值得吗？

a mask

am i thinking too much? am i jus the way too negative thinking?

everyone seems like wearing a mask

and acting infront of people every single minutes..

i always told myself that should not put so much expectation on everything, which is inclusive of people..because high expectation will always leads to a high disappointment..

that is why i seldom take everything in to heart..

and this is why i get to live my life happily, at least until this moment..

people who seems to treat you nicely, but maybe it is without their sincerity..and might hurts u eventually..

acting and being fake, i not sure what is their objective of pretending..

but for sure it is for their own sake and it would not be a good thing behind the mask..

i should have knew it earlier..

this is call reality, when you noticed that eveyone is being so fucking fake that time, you would realised your sincerity to them is just a shit..fucking smelly shit..and it is totally unworthy to do so..

Since everyone is being so selfish, then why not just treat yourself better?

KoSE LotioN

bought this one last few weeks..

was finding some new toner to use..

coz mine ard finished..

and this have been recommended by my bro's gf and also my darling Chlovy..

both of them strongly recommended this to me..

its a bit costly, i hope it is works well to me..

at first i was thinking to buy a smaller size and try

but the top sales KOSE's promoter said this month had a great promotion..

which is buy a bigGEST bottles of this lotion and grab 5X points..

once you collected 1000 points in the end of the year

there will be a free gift to you..

i dunno how much points the lotion is after 5x..

but she said left few hundreds points more then i will be stand to get the free gift from KOSE,

guess i still have to buy few more products from her in order to get the few hundreds points..

wad a good marketing strategy to boost up their sales..

Well, i used it for few weeks ard..seems nothing improvement,that means?

still ACCEPTABLE, at least my skin not getting worse..^^

Self-Examination

Still remember all the day they we went through..
Still remember all the thing we did together..
Still appreciate the loves u have given to me..
but i never forget how the tears flows down on my face..

You would never know what i'm thinking...
You might thought i'm doing something silly or maybe childish..
You might think it is doesnt a matter, but for me, it is..
You might angry because of my headiness and immaturity..
but i'm more angry myself because of my stupidity..

I do have my own principles..so do you..
I likes to be secretive and you knew it..
I used to hiden all my feelings..and hope you wont unmask it..
if you've got successfully unmasked it, its offending and you are actually entering my privacy..
so if you knew it, please jus keep it..and act like dont know everything..

Yes, everything happened must have a reason..
if i am the reason, then you would never have the chance to know it..
So please stop asking..
though its unfair to you, but nothing is fair in reality..

I still remember someone hav told me that i will be facing a lunacy problem in the future..
I was laughing badly when i heard it..i thought its kind of stupid and unreal..
but day by day passes,
I started to believes in it...
because i loves to keep all the things in my mind..
I will get crazy once its filled..

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