诱惑和寂寞

刚刚看了这边文章，顿时有了感触
内容是这样的

一个女人带着孩子出门去了
留下了男人一个人在家

女人不在家
男人喝着啤酒
不停地换着电视频道

这时..
女孩的电话打来了
她说
：我闲着没事..到你家坐坐吧?
男人说
：这——不行、我正要出去

女孩其实已经在男人的楼下了
女孩是男人的部下
女孩很多次对他表示出了好感
男人都巧妙地拒绝了
男人知道年轻女孩的心是一张空白的纸
他没有资格在上面留下任何墨迹

女孩手里提着很多东西
还有一瓶红酒
站在了男人的家门口
男人说
：那我下厨吧...
女孩说
：不用！
便在厨房里忙碌起来

男人忙不迭地收拾房子
他偶然看见女孩忙碌的背影
突然有了一种感动
就那么一会儿
他立即将这种片刻的感觉压在了心底

在另一间房子里
他开始打电话约熟悉的朋友来家里吃饭
可是朋友们都不在
过一会女孩已经在喊他了
他到厨房猛地愣了
女孩端给他的是一盘热腾腾的饺子
他最爱吃饺子了
可是平时他和女人都太忙
没有时间包饺子

两盘饺子、几碟小菜、一瓶红酒
女孩的脸上柔柔的笑
搅动了他的心
说不清为什么?
他在女孩不注意的时候关掉了手机
拉上了阳台的帘
他能听到自己心跳的声音

一瓶红酒喝完了
女孩说头晕
就软绵绵地倒在了男人怀里
男人承认女孩是美丽的
他紧紧地把她抱在怀里
也就在那一刻
他才感觉到女孩的身体是那样的弱小
在他宽阔的肩膀里像个孩子似的睡着
像他的女儿
他的心猛地一颤

女孩在他的床上睡去了
他轻轻地带上了门
这时客厅的电话响了
是女人和孩子打来的
男人仍然喝着啤酒
不停地换着频道
他分明听到了女孩轻微的呼吸
但是他努力地让自己的心冷静、再冷静

女孩醒来的时候已经是第二天早上
男人一夜未眠
男人为女孩准备了早餐
吃饭的时候
女孩问
：你不喜欢我吗?
男人说
：喜欢
：那你不寂寞吗?
：有点...可是.....
：怕我纠缠你?
女孩的嘴像迸豆似的发问
男人认真地说：生活是一种责任
就像这碗稀饭和煎蛋
尽管老吃觉得没有什么味道
可是你每天还得做、还得吃
有时甚至觉得它难吃
可是不吃心里空荡荡的
女孩沉默了

送走了女孩
男人觉得从未有过的轻松

爱是一种诚信
是需要付出代价的
如果不爱或无法承受
那么就别轻易地将自己的心打开
诱惑和寂寞
本不是爱的理由


试问，又有几个男人可以做到这点？
女人诺是送上门的，那个男人会不吃？
或许有些人会说他不会，那可能是他没遇到，
当他遇到了，心里会想着：吃了再打算~
因为他们败给了诱惑。。

在现实生活里，这是很平常的，
男人出馗也不足为奇，
反而能抵抗诱惑的，才叫稀有。。
当然，性并不是一种罪，而责任才是。。
送上门的女人，他们渴望的是短暂的拥抱，寂寞的良药。。
但诺是被拆穿了，她们可是良好婚姻的绊脚石。。
男人 女人也一样，必须对自己所做的事情负责任，承受后果而不是抱怨。

虽然说诱惑和寂寞本不是爱的理由，
可是它们却是灾难的源头

对我而言，男人出馗是很难避免的，但是吃饱了要懂得擦嘴，别留下手尾。。
为了寻求短暂的刺激，而失去你所拥有的，哪值得吗？

a mask

am i thinking too much? am i jus the way too negative thinking?

everyone seems like wearing a mask

and acting infront of people every single minutes..

i always told myself that should not put so much expectation on everything, which is inclusive of people..because high expectation will always leads to a high disappointment..

that is why i seldom take everything in to heart..

and this is why i get to live my life happily, at least until this moment..

people who seems to treat you nicely, but maybe it is without their sincerity..and might hurts u eventually..

acting and being fake, i not sure what is their objective of pretending..

but for sure it is for their own sake and it would not be a good thing behind the mask..

i should have knew it earlier..

this is call reality, when you noticed that eveyone is being so fucking fake that time, you would realised your sincerity to them is just a shit..fucking smelly shit..and it is totally unworthy to do so..

Since everyone is being so selfish, then why not just treat yourself better?

KoSE LotioN

bought this one last few weeks..

was finding some new toner to use..

coz mine ard finished..

and this have been recommended by my bro's gf and also my darling Chlovy..

both of them strongly recommended this to me..

its a bit costly, i hope it is works well to me..

at first i was thinking to buy a smaller size and try

but the top sales KOSE's promoter said this month had a great promotion..

which is buy a bigGEST bottles of this lotion and grab 5X points..

once you collected 1000 points in the end of the year

there will be a free gift to you..

i dunno how much points the lotion is after 5x..

but she said left few hundreds points more then i will be stand to get the free gift from KOSE,

guess i still have to buy few more products from her in order to get the few hundreds points..

wad a good marketing strategy to boost up their sales..

Well, i used it for few weeks ard..seems nothing improvement,that means?

still ACCEPTABLE, at least my skin not getting worse..^^

Self-Examination

Still remember all the day they we went through..
Still remember all the thing we did together..
Still appreciate the loves u have given to me..
but i never forget how the tears flows down on my face..

You would never know what i'm thinking...
You might thought i'm doing something silly or maybe childish..
You might think it is doesnt a matter, but for me, it is..
You might angry because of my headiness and immaturity..
but i'm more angry myself because of my stupidity..

I do have my own principles..so do you..
I likes to be secretive and you knew it..
I used to hiden all my feelings..and hope you wont unmask it..
if you've got successfully unmasked it, its offending and you are actually entering my privacy..
so if you knew it, please jus keep it..and act like dont know everything..

Yes, everything happened must have a reason..
if i am the reason, then you would never have the chance to know it..
So please stop asking..
though its unfair to you, but nothing is fair in reality..

I still remember someone hav told me that i will be facing a lunacy problem in the future..
I was laughing badly when i heard it..i thought its kind of stupid and unreal..
but day by day passes,
I started to believes in it...
because i loves to keep all the things in my mind..
I will get crazy once its filled..

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Thailand trip 28/8-31/8

Hatyai is a peaceful place in thailand, thai are so respectful, they welcome every tourist with their smile and famous greeting ''sawaddeecap'', haha..frankly speak, thai language is a bit funny and it sounds like bad words to me..because mostly their language must have '' lan'' n ''hai'' in a single sentence, although its a bit rude, but its their language, we have to respect!

i went to Hatyai with my mom,some of my frens and some aunties uncles..we've visited uncountable temples during this trip..me and my mom not really know how to do worship properly, so we were just walking around all the temple, and snapping photos. we went Dragon temple, La zha temple, Guan Yin temple, Tai Yang temple..etc..

Birt's nest is selling cheap in Thailand, one bowl is costing only 200 bahts= Rm20..but i guess its in low quality..haha..but we were still willing to pay for it since its quite cheap...

Aqua show is one of the famous activity in Thailand, Well, i didnt get to watch the show, because my mom dont want to go, impossible i leave my mom stay alone in the hotel, so i decided to be company with my mom..my friends and other teenagers went to the show, i got some feedback from them, they said the show was just so adult, get wht i mean? erm, al AQUA were all naked in the show and having sex on the stage, a bit unacceptable for some of our asian, coz we are jus too traditional thinking..one more things, my frens said they have good body figure and good looking, all looks exactly like pretty girls, might even prettier than girl!

Hatyai floating market, its a must place to pay a visit, the view is just too attractive, sellers are all sitting on a sampan and doing their business, its a fabulous place, i love this place so much! seriously! the place is selling various of famous thai snacks, you are get to see their culture and foods there, and all things and foods are selling god damn cheap!

Thai Massage, Oh my gosh, i believes most of the massage addictor could not stand for it, wakkaa, 250-300 baht for 1 hour and 45 mins, its so cheap! but before go for massage, please state clearly that you wanna have a proper massage, because there is a lot of massaging place providing ''special business'', haha, try imaging AQUA help you to do showering? yuackkss, so disgusting!

we went night market by sitting on a ''tut-tut'' car, haha, so cute, actually the car is like our taxi, but with no air-con and size small..their night market is nothing much different with ours, but have a huge different in the price, they are selling all the things very cheap=.=''. most of the sellers are able to speak in mandarin, so you can do bargaining in mandarin when you r interested with their products. although they looks exactly like malay but please, dont speak malay with them, they dont know malay at all..they are THAI, haha

these few days i ate a lot, because every meals is provided, breakfast lunch and dinner, i did not missed out any one of them, plus thai snacks sommore, all foods are too yummy, thats why i brought it all into my body, transform to fats, and took it back to malaysia...aiks, 2kgs gainned..

SummeR BreaK

all of you must be wondering why i could have such a long semester break, its last for 4 months time, oh my gosh, most of my friends are seriously envy me, but if you were me, you would know that 4 months time is not easy to pass and not really enjoyable! its terribly boring and meaningless, everyday stay at home and do nothing besides eating and sleeping. body size getting larger and larger, face become rounded and rounded..just because of this summer break.. dont really know what is this break for...

well, i've tried to seek for some office work, and i got a lot of offer too, but i rejected all of those, due to salary too low, long hours, location is not covienent enough and etc, but i think the main reason is because i'm averse to work! lazy piglet i m! broke broke broke, because of didnt work, no income but still keep on spending, now left one month more..i gained nothing during this holidays except tons of fat..argh! ** i'm still enjoying eating chocolates at this very moment**

one month more, guys, help me to think how to spend this one month time..maybe i should go for some coursE? like dancing? baking? or sleeping?? wakakka~

~A WonderFuL NightZ at 11/7~

i had a great time with all my sista last weekend,though it was really sad when all my sista were busy for their own stuff for quite a time, and forced to neglected our friendship ( it's just what i thought, maybe some of them are intended to neglect it XD)..i got no idea who was the organiser of this so-called secondary school's Sista Gathering, but still credit to the organiser, because it was a wonderful gathering ever, good job and love it!


what do you think when a bunch of girl sit together in a table?? yeah! no others, must be gossip already! feel extraordinary happy while saying people's bad, thats what a girl normally do! apart from that, we had been forced to share our experienced and impressived love history, one by one and no one is excepted!

we taken a lot of photos with different angles, postures, and we had grabbed some accessories from the restaurant..we acted cute, cool and stupid while taking photos and we laughed, we shouted, talked loudly! despite how others will think of us, as long as we had fun and happy to chat with each other, nothing is more important than spending time with da sista!

there is no word to describe how good to spending time with the sista, but i believes the photos below would tells! enjoy~

from left to right: ME!!, heeling, Fish Ng, Kathy Yap, Siew Wen, Chlovy, Jessie, Quennie and Sammine~

looking forwards to our next gathering! i'm sure it will be bringing another surprise for us! Mysterious Organizer, please show up and do something^^